“Are you sure wala ka nang “tibok” at “kilig” for him? kasi kung meron pa, ikaw rin ang mahihirapan. pero if you can honestly say na “wa epek” na sya sa yo….”

Comment by maria

Thanks for that question, Maria. Kasi it made me take a second look at my feelings. Ika nga eh medyo nilingon ko ulit ang puso ko. Magbabalik-alaala ako sandali.

We were friends for almost a year, went out for six months, had a relationship for two weeks, had no relationship after another two weeks. Natawa ako sa last part. Anyway, ‘yan ang pagkakatalay-talay ng mga pangyayari sa lablayp ko.

It was a learning process for me. Para bagang nanonood ako ng Discovery channel. Hindi ko alam na sa isang relationship pala, there are such things as stages, levels and …of all things….guidelines! Meron pa palang isa…expectations….too much expectations.

It takes two to tango. Siyempre, noh! Mukha naman akong tanga kung mag-isa akong nagdi-dip haha! Hanep sa imagery…masubukan nga. Teka lang, sorry, I digress again.

Balik tayo sa levels and guidelines….

“…. ..healthy thing to talk to him….so that all your questions hopefully were answered.
Comment by emily g

“……So did you find the reason why he suddenly shut you off?” Comment by Joey

Honestly? Nope. Hindi niya inamin. I just knew. I think… no… I’m sure he tried to forget me. He tested himself kung kaya niya akong kalimutan. Pero na-discover niyang nakaka-adik pala ang byuti ko bwahahaha

Kaya ko na-conclude ‘yon, halos hindi ko siya nakilala sa itsura niya. He was a total mess! Pumayat siya, may maiitim na eyebags at parang scarecrow na nakatindig ang mga buhok. Pero to be fair, pogi pa rin ang loko. Maria, my dear, kinilig pa rin ako nung makita ko siya hehe. Tumibok pa rin ang “blank” ko nyahahaha! Ang bastos ni Ella tsk.

Anyway ulit, there was a long talk about love. Actually, more on needing each other. He said I was a “fun” friend, yes, but will I be the “good girlfriend”? He doubted that. Palagay ko rin tama siya.

“……hindi siya nababagay sa iyo kung hindi niya pinahahalagahan ang iyong nararamdaman” Comment by jlois

Magkaibigan kami. We were friends first before there was a “love” relationship. Jlois, maypren, ako ang hindi nagpapahalaga sa damdamin niya. Remember we sat down and discussed some dos and donts in our relationship? When it came to the issue of “exclusivity”, pumalag ako.

I cannot give up my freedom, my self sufficiency. It did not mean magpapaligaw pa ako o maglalandi pa sa ibang lalaki. No. But I will still do things and go to places without telling him. If I want to see a movie alone or with another guy friend, I will still go and see that movie. I feel he doesn’t need to know my whereabouts 24/7. Ano siya, “bundy clock”?

But alas…territorial pala ang male of the species. Mahalaga pala sa kanya ‘yung “nagpapaalam” pa ako. ‘Yung alam niya ang ginagawa ko kapag hindi siya ang kasama ko. Hellow, may Tatay na ako, noh! Hindi ko na kailangan ang isa pa.

Nagtataka siya kung bakit hindi ako interesado sa mga activities niya kapag ako naman ang wala. He then equated it sa “I don’t really care” about him.

I’m sorry but I am not the needy, clingy, weakling “awww, you’re my hero” type of girl. I will not go for “exclusivity” (or ball and chain para sa akin). I will never be totally “his”. If he can’t live with it, well, sorry na lang kaming dalawa. Because….thiiiis iiiis a Spartaaaaan!! AHOOOM!! hehe

“…well, okay lang ‘yan. Darating din ang nakalaan sa iyo. No rush…” comment by des

“….ate ella, mabuti na lang ang lagi kang praktikal…mas mahal magpa-annul kaysa magpakasal….AHOOOOOM! Comment by mistiquo

Yup, I know, Des and Mistiquo, my friends. And I’ll be here, waiting….for my Spartan man. AHOOOM ulit! hehe